"You are experiencing extreme emotional disappointment because it would seem that a particular relationship is no longer running smoothly. You would like to break away from this involvement completely and yet, if this were to happen, then its possible that something very important to you would be lost. You are in a quandary. You are not sure which way to turn. So on the one hand, you would like to free yourself from this attachment altogether, yet on the other, you do not want to lose anything nor risk uncertainty and the possibility of further disappointment. These contradictory and opposing emotions are now causing you considerable stress but you are putting on a brave face - pretending that you don't care."
Wah. Time spent with jerage is always quality time I must say.
Random picture of the day: White ninja to the rescue! I wanna be a (stupid) superhero one day.
Beer is evil. Evil, evil, evil. We should do this again, just like old times my first love. ---
Because once and twice doesn't mean three times.
Number 2... where is my number 2... I NEED A NEW OBSESSION.
And just to sidetrack and not to sound like I'm boasting, I think I am quite eligible leh, considering the standards going around nowadays (oooh, I am not bitchy. No, really)
I may not be rich, but I have enough to survive; I may not be drop dead gorgeous, but I think my looks don't make people cringe (yet); I may not be tall, but I'm not that short either; I may not studying in harvard, but I do believe I'm capable of holding an intellectual conversation I may not be able to give you everything in the world, but I know I pretty damn much will try to!
And to top it off, I've got a pretty goodlooking family. So (angmoh/mixed/malay/indian) boys, there's always andrea. Hahahaha. Oh you chinese ah? Boy ah? Sorry this post is irrelevant to you, you can stop reading.
So anyway tell me why.. WHY DOES NO ONE WANT ME?! (I am not very fussy lor) Nabei.
Wah lao; one day someone will realise my good traits and appreciate me. I don't believe there's no one out there who will! ARGH!
Angsty early afternoon post; pre-library, post-hangover. WARRAO.
(All in jest friends... this is done all in jest)
Y porque español es una lengua atractiva, deseo aprenderla otra vez!
Oh and a very random note: Can someone please please please go watch 'the devil wears prada' with me?! :( ---
The colorgenics test above was taken when I was intoxicated, and this, was done today:
"You are setting yourself an illusory goal. Whatever it was that has made you so bitterly disappointed has left a nasty taste in your mouth and you feel that 'enough is enough'. You are sick of it all. Wouldn't it just be wonderful if you could retire to a desert island and turn your back on the past? But it's an illusion and you know it.
You are experiencing considerable difficulty trying to achieve your goals. As a consequence of this you are becoming more and more irritable. Your friends and acquaintances are finding it increasingly more difficult to appease or to reason with you. You are the cause of your own problems. Don't be so impulsive. It is your vacillation that can lead to problems and uncertainties. Ease up a little.
It is amazing that you yourself believe that old 'adage' that you are a misunderstood person - and you feel that because of this you are being left out in the cold. It is because of this lack of believed understanding that you feel the need to conform to society in general - but this situation leaves you 'cold' knowing that you are not appreciated for your true self. Any relationship that you are developing at this time does not seem to involve any true emotional commitment, you seem to be just playing along.
For some time now your hopes and expectations have been denied and because of this you are becoming withdrawn and introverted. Continual disappointment has manifested itself in you becoming both suspicious and restrained you have become withdrawn from others and have receded more and more into yourself. You seem to have lost your innate enthusiasm and imaginative nature, for fear that you may be carried away by it only to find that you are wasting your time. You are loath to trust people, as in the past your trust has been misplaced. You seem to be keeping yourself cautiously aloof from others. At this moment in time your attitude is to trust nobody - until they can prove themselves to you.
At this time you don't particularly like yourself. Everything that you have tried to do seems to have gone wrong. This makes you feel that there is no point in trying to start again. Apart from being stressed and tense, you are angry with yourself and have unadmitted self-contempt. Your refusal to admit that you and you alone is the basic cause of your problems leads to you adopting a headstrong and defiant attitude. If you take stock of yourself, smile a little and let go, everything will turn out OK. Have you not heard of the cliche 'smile and the world smiles with you - cry and you cry alone!'?"
Wow. ---
The radio's playing an old rendition of "Endless Love".
Dum dum dum dum.. I'm bored.. Lalaladidum.
Once again, day in at home #19392. I could get used to this.
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